Monday, June 17, 2013

The Happiness Project - Part 2

The day after my last post I started my day with the will and determination to make my dreams came true. Nothing could harsh my buzz as it were. That was until the first true challenge to the Happiness Project took me down a peg or five. I discovered I don't meet the requirements for my top pick school. All of the dreams I had built around it came crashing down around me. True to my nature, I cried. I yelled. I was angry, at myself, at how fucking hard everything always seems to be. It isn't easy to give up a dream or even delay it for a more practical route. I did the whole self-pity bullshit for the day. OK and a little the next day too...BUT the point is, the goal of the Happiness Project is to not just make myself happy through action but to learn how to be happy while I wait for the results. Patience is not a virtue that comes to me naturally.

So I've reevaluated. I'm going to go the path of least resistance - however boring it may be. I'm going to attend a nearby college which will give me the Bachelor's in History I want and also allow me to complete my French minor, something I need if I want to pursue a Master's in History -which I do.

In addition to enrolling in school, I have decided to love my space. This isn't like the decluttering I mentioned previously. This is about taking a room that I despise - I mean really fucking resent - and turning it into my little piece of the world. What that really comes down to is spending a lot of time on Pinterest. I haven't picked out anything final but I'm pretty sure it is going to involve lots of Doctor Who inspired artwork. I'm a huge nerd, what can I say.

I've also treated myself to a new desktop computer. I haven't had my own computer for years so this is a real treat for myself. The intention is that my own computer will enable me to focus better on school work. It also functions as motivation. I have to earn this computer. This isn't a gift, this is a reward for things yet to come. Side note: When the hell did they start putting 2 terabyte hard drives in the average computer?!

Now, I just have to get my dad to install my closet. My clothes are currently EVERY-FUCKING-WHERE!